So, I keep telling myself I need to write more and actually make this blog useful and thus far, I have failed. I do enjoy and love writing, I just don’t feel the necessity to always write what I think as it probably won’t matter anyways. Well that’s all kind of changing thanks in part to the wonderful professor of my Applied Composition Explores Children’s Writing class, MaryScarlett Amaris (MSA for short). She is quite the free-thinker and is already becoming an inspiration to me. She is truly letting us explore the pedagogy of the Writing Process through experience and progressive logic. I could already write a ton of what she has inspired me to write but I want to concentrate on yesterday’s lesson where we learned to reinforce the notion of actually caring for what we write and knowing it could be important and instilling this in our future students. Long story short, it inspired me to write a series of entries, that I will try to do daily, that will focus on one of the most protruding thoughts of my day because maybe someone somewhere will actually care to read and relate. A true look in my “mused perspective”. Well this is actually one from yesterday that I’ll post today and the one I had today I’ll write tomorrow (hint, it involves my future class).
The more involved I get into education and teaching, the more worried and nervous I get about being a homosexual teacher. It may seem like a silly worry to an outsider but it’s really an honest concern of mine. I, and many of you, understand that a good person is a good person, regardless of orientation, color, nationality, religion, etc… but there are many out there who aren’t as well cultured and are in all honesty, ignorant on these aspects of social life. There are many people out there who still see in black and white, live by stereotypes, make assumptions, and are unwilling to accept the way people are born. And what does this mean for me…well I am an open gay man. I have faced, and continue to face, the adversities set in front of me because the way I have always been. I have heard the mean comments, heard the blind assumptions, seen the heads turn when I don’t fit the criteria of the stereotype… I am just like any other normal person, like any of other normal guy. I’ve never been an “in-your-face” type of person…I’ve always just been true to myself; I’ve always kept my persona of ME. However being born gay and being comfortable and accepting of one’s true self is still seen as a taboo by many. I know I will be a great teacher, hopefully an amazing one. I have education in my blood. I have the ideas, I have the foundations, I have the passion and love, I’m learning the pedagogy, and I’m refining the process. I hope my ability though will never be overshadowed by people’s ignorant assumptions and stereotypes that believe who I am is “wrong”. After hearing these two women yesterday at Starbucks gossip about their children’s teachers because of seemingly worthless reasons, I grow fearful that one day, despite my ability in the craft, I will become the subject of ignorant ridden gossip. A straight teacher doesn’t push their personal life on their students and neither does a gay teacher. A good person is a good person; a good teacher is a good teacher…I just wish more would have that objective mindset.